Who Does She Think She Is?

Let me tell you a story. There once was this little girl, well she was 17 years old and I guess I shouldn’t say she was little. She was 6 feet tall for cryin’ out loud. Of course, people always asked if she played sports and luckily, she could say she did. She was amazing at basketball and had so much support from her family, coaches, friends, and she even signed for a full-ride scholarship to be a student athlete at a college near me. She is so kind and silly that she’s one of those people that you always want to be around, and you can’t help but like. She is beautiful but, like most young women today, her self-image doesn’t quite make the cut. She thinks that her nose is too big and doesn’t like other “flaws” that she has. She tells herself that she’s no good at the things she loves. She pushes herself so hard and does everything she can to be perfect.

My little sister didn’t realize she’s one of the most beautiful girls I know. When she’s talking about all the things she wishes were different, I just stand there, wishing I looked like her and could do the things she does. I have a bad habit of thinking, “I’m the same size as you. I eat less than you. I work out. Why can’t I just look like you? Why can’t I be like you?” There are so many important people in my life that want to change the way they look to fit certain societal standards.

I was also one of those people. I was so focused on changing the way I looked that I never got the changes I wanted. I looked for anything that would give me validation or just a sliver of confidence, to no avail. I wanted to be someone different. I wanted to be good at all of these things that would make me more unique, but instead I would end up in my room, isolated and disappointed in myself.

The main purpose of this blog is to keep myself and anyone else with experiences like this away from getting that I’m not good enough mindset. I’m setting goals for myself that will make me stronger, not more beautiful. I hope that by reading Rain or Shine you’ll see that you are very much capable of becoming stronger and that you have so much more to offer than people say.